The Course talks at length about our ego needs to feel special. These needs are so strong that we make it our goal to enter into dozens or hundreds of special relationships over a lifetime which, in our ego thinking, assures us that someone will stroke us and think us special. Since our ego minds believe we've abandoned God we certainly can't count on Him to revel in our special-ness, now can we?
So over the years I've said things like "Yes, I started reading A Course in Miracles about ten years ago." Or, "It seems like I've always been a 'seeker.' For years I read all the Jane Roberts 'Seth' books, Carlos Castenadas' books about 'don Juan' ... and listened repeatedly to Earl Nightingale's 'Strangest Secret' on audio tape and Jonathan Parker's meditation and spiritual tapes."
Just the other day on Oprah's "Super Soul Sunday" a woman said, "Oh yes, I've been reading 'The Four Agreements' for almost 20 years now."
So many of us are seekers after the truth with a capital "T." We spend years ambling down one path or another looking for the key that opens the magical door to...what? Wisdom? Enlightenment? The Peace of God?
There's nothing wrong with seeking. There's nothing wrong with feeling like there's still something "more true" out there somewhere. It may take years to understand that the place we've reached is what we've been seeking. Or that we still have farther to go in our search. None of that matters.
However, the Course reminds us over and over again that we can "Choose again." We don't need to wait for another ACIM class, another Sunday in church, another Google hangout, another new insight, another ACIM interview or video. All of these things may be fun and enlightening. But we simply don't have to wait for anything...at all. We can all choose now.
The final chapter of the final chapter in the Course, Choose Once Again gives us a final reminder that we no longer have to wait.
Now I believe something different from what I used to believe. Now I understand today and this very moment is the time when I choose and that I choose continuously each nanosecond. It's no longer about how long I've been "seeking." It's about choosing right now.
Liz Cronkhite counsels us to spend time with God every day. The more we do the more we're choosing.
Bob Goff talks about Love in his book Love Does: Love doesn't think about doing something. Lovedoes.
Spending time with God is Doing. It's Choosing. It's what makes the most sense to me.